Thread:Pomelo Water/@comment-44001922-20191214215121

one last vent before message walls are removed.

i left the wiki discord server because seeing people, especially newer members, soaring up the ranks and being successful and respected on the wiki made me jealous. i was upset, but now i'm just sad. i've ruined everything for myself so many times that i have no chance of ever being anything but a nuisance in the community. i miss the days when i ran my own discord server and had plans to become a discussion moderator and later a content moderator. i wish i hadn't done so many inappropriate things that i can't be trusted now. i wish i didn't have such a bad standing with the administration. i love theremind and the monster world, but i can't get rid of the bitter aftertaste it has for me. 