Thread:Yelmut Eats A Lemon/@comment-40022303-20190820144010/@comment-25404524-20190821055555

In real life, I am very lonely too. I struggle to even get a sign of a potential girlfriend. And whenever I do something awkward in front of girls, I tend to become very disappointed in myself and instead just hide in the corner. My life is so much harder in university now that I have come to this inevitable outcome that I no longer can live as a child, despite having missed many wonderful opportunities in childhood as a young boy while I was known for my autism traits. I once drived my mother's car, but I just didn't do that anymore now that my mother's old car broke from a non-fatal car crash. My mother's new car doesn't feel anywhere near like my mother's old car, so I just gave up with learning to drive. I don't even have any friends in real life that I talk to often, and whenever I do so it's only within school, and even then I don't talk to them much.

Tensions have become tight during my wiki times, especially with various user blocks and in-wiki issues around me, but I just had to push forward to work towards my basic goals. As long as I accomplish with daily improvements in my own fields of expertise, I am happy each day. But often daily intrusions such as my real life public embarrassments tend to push me back from liking myself again.